So, as the season finale was approaching, with so many expectations and wishes coming with it, who would have thought it would turn out this way? What has been an incoherent year of jaded longing, stark disappointments, and overjoyed rapture was finally resolved in a more or less ultimate fashion. Or, at least, in a few aspects. And I am so immensely excited about what is going to ensue.
I have lavished so much of my energy and chiefly inner resources on transmuting my situation into an advantageous experience. Though unsure about the tangible outcomes, many a thing has changed, much to my delight at times but alas, way too often it was much to my horror. Irreversible though some of the changes may be, I am generally
enthusiastic about and open to what the future might bring.
Everything happens for reasons I just don't know.
Or so I have always remembered from my youth, all those distinct memories of my warming up and getting up to speed before the many confrontations. And my god was I eager to win. I fostered a burning passion inside me that drove me to my many triumphs, I was unstoppable and inexorable in my efforts to secure my position even further. What a surprise it was then when all this sensation had vanished, when I recognised I no longer cared about winning, when I doubted my own motives. It may be all long gone, but I trust I have managed to recover at least some of my former ambitions. Hence, I have created my homepage:
Behold!
In the meantime, I also gave to talks in our student seminars, commentaries of which will follow in the next couple of days.
