Germany in the new year

So, a happy new year! It is still 2016 so I am not late at all. I have been getting a lot of amazing rest and truly enjoyed my Christmas holidays. Study-wise I was mostly concerned with the metaphysical questions and seem to have come to some conclusions regarding my own motivation for studying and the purpose of my life.

Admiring the beauty of my homelands.

With some exceptions and taking into account my exceptional amount of bad luck, which has persisted since I've got here, I am getting used to being in Regensburg. I am particularly amazed by my elliptic curves and modular forms course by professor Guido Kings and also my topology experience with Clara Löh is rather positive, so there is interesting content for me to study, but somehow I am still unable to arrange the conditions for me here to actually study and, you know, learn things?

So I am still struggling with finding any kind of solution to this problem: I sincerely acknowledge that some people are happy and productive here and it is a motivating and supporting environment for them, on the other hand, I honestly feel a significant decrease in convenience from my previous places. And as much as I am trying to get things done, I am not feeling I am accomplishing anything of that sort.

Eagerly awaiting snow also in Regensburg!

So, the big question still remains and I do apologise to all my poor friends who have suffered from me being singularly annoying and disheartening with bringing it up over and over again, as the advice is most strikingly divided between "go now" and "definitely stay". It makes it especially difficult as I am rather convinced that I do want to do math and do not end up feeling resigned that I am just going to suffer through this period, hoping that it will improve in some vaguely defined future.

As for the happy things, I have been learning Serre duality and I am rather impressed with the beauty of the ideas there. I have a bit of a difficult time trying to structure my talk but I am getting to grips with it. Wish me luck, I will share more next time.

Home versus the rainy Regensburg. Well, whatever.