So, my semester in Regensburg is over. I think it is time for a small evaluation of my study process, some of which has been implied in my previous posts. First I would like to focus on the human topics, with follow-ups on more specific issues, like math and future and traveling.
Perhaps the most important realisation for me was that I cannot do mathematics without substantial support of my social group and perks of the first world society. I need to talk to people to avoid falling into depressions and possibly to people outside mathematics to realise how amazing mathematics really is. In this respect, my German class was immensely helpful, I met several amazing people there who have been very supportive and fun to be around.
Also, I have come to appreciate the role of my family and a place one truly belongs to without question. It feels great to have an amazing home one can come back to whenever needed. I had been feeling out of my place many times last year and it has negatively impacted my well-being. Long travels home might be time and money consuming, but even if so, this is certainly a way one can buy happiness. I don't know anything more beautiful than a walk in the winter forest, breathing the sweet fresh air and feeling at peace. And feeling like a part of the particular place, not just a visitor.
For various reasons, I have not been able to relate to my own classmates as much as I would have liked, but one cannot force math onto themselves and my math appetite has moved towards the evening hours. Also, as I have not been in the best of my moods basically all the semester, I had been grumpy and careless and frankly happy just to be holding my head up at times, so I hope the following semester will be better.
There have also been some unfortunate news from my personal life, some of which shook me more than others. But I am lucky enough to have people around me who helped me overcome these shocks. And compared to my previous semester, life has been rather nice to me.
Still, by the end of the semester I was feeling so overwhelmed that I decided to just stop pushing and go for holidays. This was a great decision and I am happy my partner has been incredibly understanding and flexible enough to drive me to the mountains and spend an amazing week with me. It was a good decision as now I am full of energy and willpower to work hard and since I've got back, I have already done better math than in the week before. And I am still ready and eager for more!
So, that's the human discoveries. As for math, it will be the contents of my following post.
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